what has happened to the human spirit?

I walked into work today, smiling, upbeat and with a positive attitude. As I was sitting down to review the patient list on my service, my pager goes off. I read the text that stated something like, 'this is the 4th page I'm sending, the next time I am going to page the attending' all in regards to a patient's elevated BP. For the record, that was the first page I received so you can only imagine how the rebel and non-obedient inner-self within me handled such a proclamation. I calmly and promptly returned the page, letting the nurse know that it was inappropriate to greet me with such threatening remarks, which needless to say spinned into a heated dialogue or why else would I be sharing this right? Her page was wrong for many reasons, a few I'll share: #1 she was paging the wrong person #2 there were medications already in place for BP that she did not see and #3 she lied stating she paged me numerous times. It was a completely unprofessional interaction and had me fired up all day. See, in a non-teaching hospital this behavior simply would not be acceptable. Beyond that and on a deeper level, I can't seem to understand what has happened to the human spirit. I can't imagine she would treat a patient so disrespectfully, so then why me? This is clearly not an isolated experience, I've seen this repeatedly among residents, in particular the females. I just wonder have we as a society become so overworked and unfulfilled that we no longer find appreciation and meaning in the simple interaction among humans? Have we become so cold and distant that were are numb to others? See, I come from the perspective that we all are the same and one for that matter, so when you hurt another spirit you are actually hurting yourself. Perhaps this is all something limited to the hospital and residency and I'm just being dramatic, I'm not sure.

healthy.

here's a few of my creative ventures that I've come across through my detox, which is going strong. I have to say this is the healthiest I have ever felt in my life. My hope is that this becomes a lifestyle rather than just an experience.

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quinoa with zuccini & almonds

lentils with beets & herbs

chickpea, tomato & spelt soup

detox.

millet with black beans & vegetables

After a month of 'q3 call' (spending 30 hours at the hospital every 3 days), I can feel the accumulation of toxins throughout my body and fear the longterm effects it will have, which has inspired me to start a detox plan. My hope is to 'let go' of the intensity and expectations I have acquired as a result of my month in the CCU. I have found a great 28 day plan with a holistic approach aimed to cleanse the mind, body, and spirit. I cleared my apartment today of all processed foods and made this lovely dinner! I have packed my lunch, dinner & breakfast for my last call in the CCU and am interested to see how it goes...

rumi.

“Forget safety. Live where you fear to live. Destroy your reputation. Be notorious.”

I like this.